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You’ve Got The Love..


This past week has basically been extremely crapola . Like I’m talking SUPER crapola, Remember thethe discussion with my mum  : “Shit happens but nobody expects Diarrhoea “.

I seriously copped the Diarrhoea this week.

Lucky for me I have some pretty amazingly awesome Friends and Family who have been my rock . Also there have been people who haven’t even known me for very long but they too have been gunning for me as well.

This song is for them , and if you feel like it crank it.

 

Letting Things Go..


The past few months have required some serious thinking.

All on different levels.

Procrastination is one of my worst downfalls along with the inability to say “No”. In the past two months I have had to try to be proactive and let a few things go. It has been hard…. and somewhat heartbreaking in cases.

I can be a very volatile and highly emotive individual in set circumstances and my life recently has been filled with so many  of these that it has been a bit of a rollercoaster.

Unbeknownst to some of you  I ended up spending quite a lot of the past few weeks with “He who shall not be named” – It gave me familiarity, I felt comfortable and life was simple. Also in this timeframe he told me he was leaving, going back to England – which wasn’t really a choice, more of a situation of circumstance where his second year visa  had days before it expired and he could no longer stay. My experiences with him last year and even so more recently had actually made me a stronger person  and I reconciled with the fact that i would not become so emotionally involved this time around  and also that I would be calling the shots.

He at least owed me that much.

I cried. I may have even cried more than I thought I would. I put on a false persona to those around me and made out that I was a strong individual – I was borderline of being a Chuck Norris in training  – Well, that’s what they thought.

I think I cried more at the idea of not having that familiarity there anymore rather than for him. I know my tears last time round were more for the person and the relationship that we had. This time it was just for me. I got the closure I so very well deserved and needed.

I’m now letting go. And moving on.

If I don’t then the only person who will ever be able to have a piece of my heart is myself, and last time I checked I wasnt that selfish.

Eeny Meeny Miney Mo.


Last week was full on.    Like really full on.

I’m surprised my brain has had the capacity to keep up with what happened but  it did.

The week ended up presenting itself with some unusual surprises which all ended up being rather good. And yes, they were all on the manfront.

The craziness of  Saturday Night at Devilles for Halloween ended up with me basically talking the ear off one very attractive pilot who happened to be at the Halloween Party just by accident. My first line of conversation to him and his friend was “So are you two really pilots or is that your costume for tonite?” Of which the response I received was “No. We actually are and not long flew in all we wanted was to go out and told the taxi driver to take us somewhere where we were definitely going to have a good night”.

The conversation flowed from there along with the beers and champagne consumption which ended up with me having a brilliant conversation with an extremely well-mannered and lovely guy.

This lovely guy now has my number and we have been texting each other for the best part of the last week and we will be having dinner later on this week of which im rather excited about. Oh and I forgot to say , He’s English. But hey, you can’t tarnish them all with the same brush.

BUT.

There is something else.

Before I go on I am not a hussy and I look at it as keeping my options open.

On the Friday night, BEFORE I met the dashing pilot, I was having a very innocent conversation with a guy I went to High School with on Facebook. Yes I know Facebook. But hey these things happen. We approached the subject of what was I doing for my 30th, Did I have any plans or was i just going to ignore it and pretend it wasnt happening.

I told him that I really didn’t have a clue and would work it all out in due course. This was then proceeded by a question of ” Well, I would actually like to take you out for Dinner for your Birthday if you havent got any Plans”.

This kind of threw me and I had to think a little bit about it. You see I havent even seen Mr. High School since I was 17, and to be honest I don’t really think I even associated with him that much back in the day either. What do you say? “Oh Yeah, Sure I’ll forget about all my family and friends and leave them to come have dinner with you” ( No, I’m not that much of a bitch that I said that).

In actual fact my reply was ” Thanks for the thought that’s really lovely and I will let you know” which I then added to the end of it “FYI. If you really want to take me out to dinner you know you don’t have to use my Birthday as an excuse”.

He then replied that he was rather embarrassed and just thought that it was an easy way to break the ice. I found this rather sweet and we did arrange to go out on Saturday night just gone for dinner but he had to go to Sydney for work at short notice, but I did get inundated with text messages from him telling me how sorry he was and how disappointed he was in not being able to take me out. He also added that he first stop back  from the airport would be to see me if it was ok with me.

Of course its alright with me.

Like I said. I’m keeping my options open. Just because you can go out for dinner or see people socially for a date does not mean you are sleeping with them or going to be sleeping with them (This I had to explain to my mother at great length, and trust me she is a hard woman to convince especially when I told her the Pilot was English ,  she practically hit the roof. )

So now we have another week ahead of us and hopefully I shall be seeing both of these men – Who are actually very different to each other.

First dates always make me feel like I’m about to spew forth butterflies

I’ll keep you posted as to what happens.

Be Awesome


After two weeks of moping around, I have decided to face up to reality and get over the Bullshit.

So many people have told me their opinions, given me their ideas and also told me that im stronger than the person I have become recently.

Its so much easier said than done , but now Im having to become the more action less talk woman that I was previously and continue to follow through with that whole ideal.

People telling you that you are awesome, charming, witty and have alot to offer others  is just grand.

BUT you have to believe this yourself as well, because if you dont you will never get over the deluge of the blackness that you have fallen into.

This is the conclusion I am coming to in the recent events that have nastily popped up in my life.

Kicking the Shit to the kerb.

Setting Limitations, not only on myself but to others.

Along with telling myself that I am a good person.

I deserve better.

Dont be sad.

Be Awesome.